A Walk Through Reality

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I've put off writing this blog post for the last few days because its painful to admit my shortcomings here for anyone to read.

I usually plug in my headphones and tune out during my walks, but lately I've been challenging myself to use this time intentionally for prayer and reflection, and I've realized something--I'm not very thankful.

As I walked, I prayed about some of my unanswered prayers and listed, as a 'reminder', the desires He has not fulfilled, and the dissatisfaction that that lack of response has caused.

But before I could wallow too long in my self-pity, I remembered something. Most (ok, all) of my complaints are not important in light of eternity.

How often do I contemplate the unimaginable--of Christ dying on the cross for me--for my sins? Not enough. So often, I don't see the sin that binds me and keeps my thoughts centered on the wrong things. I use God as a sounding board for my complaints because it's easier than facing the issues behind them. He does care about me, and the desires of my heart, but so often those desires are skewed by my own sinful human nature. It's painful to acknowledge just how self-focused I am 99.9% of the time.

It's amazing what can come of a simple walk when I unplug from distractions.

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Dad said…
AMEN. We are SO distracted most of the time that we hardly have any sense of what God's trying to do in our lives or say to us through His Word. Keep it UNPLUGGED!!
March 13, 2018 at 2:02 PM
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