Changing Seasons

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I've been thinking a lot about my future. There's a lot to think about. Within the next few months I'll be moving out of Anchorage. I'll have to find a job, a new church. Make new friends. It's daunting, when I think about it.

I turned down a job offer here in Ohio.

In some ways, I wonder if that was the right decision, but I know it was because I didn't feel peace until I decided to pass on it. It was the 'right' kind of job--good pay, a chance to plug into a solid community here, to be near my parents. I might have been able to buy a house once I settled in. In so many ways it looked like the right choice.

But God has a different plan for my life.

As I prayed about the opportunity, I realized that choosing to stay in Ohio would not be a bad thing. It could be good but it felt like the easy choice, like I wasn't willing to trust that God could use my uncertain future and bring something good from it. I chose the more difficult path by staying in Alaska.

In the eyes of the world, it might have been a foolish decision, but I believe something else. I don't know what God has planned for me, but it is freeing to know that my future is in His hands and I have nothing to fear or worry about.

It feels a bit like jumping off of a cliff (I hate heights so the thought terrifies me) but I know that "all things work for the good of those that love Him and are called according to His purpose." (Romans 8:28) I've spent the last year and a half learning what it means to "trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding." (Proverbs 3:5, paraphrased slightly) 

I'm ready for the next chapter in my life, whatever it brings.

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