Finding Contentment

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Do you ever feel like you have given up on your dreams? Or maybe you have just lost sight of them because they have changed so completely. Before I went to college I wanted to be a writer. That is what I felt most gifted towards--I'm not exceptionally smart, I don't like math, I'm a mediocre musician. Forget art. Even my stick figures are almost unrecognizable as human beings.

I went to school with ideals and dreams just like anyone else. I came out four years later with those dreams mostly intact. Instead of a creative writer I was going to be a technical writer.  But I've been out of school for almost two years and I'm still not writing. I know that if anyone is to blame, it is myself; I haven't tried hard enough, searched hard enough. Maybe I'm having a mid-twenties crisis because I do not know what I want to do. I'm supposed to be too young for this right? This is the time when I pursue my dreams and make a name for myself. But let's be honest, we can't all be J.K. Rowling's and Mark Zuckerbergs.

Most days I feel like this is where I am supposed to be. This is where God wants me. But every now and then I really stop and take a look at my life and think, 'what am I doing? This isn't who I was supposed to be. This isn't what I was supposed to do. Finance? That was never my plan.'

It was never my plan, but I do believe it is God's. Recently I have found so much comfort in that knowledge. I have been focusing on being thankful and content, focusing less on what I do not have, and what I am not doing, and more on what I am blessed with.

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