Letting Go
Happy new year everyone! I've been spoiled with warm weather for the past few weeks. It's going to be a rude awakening when I head back to Alaska. Most people have resolutions at the start of a new year. I have one--to finish my book. But that's it. Any more and I have a greater chance of missing my goals and spiraling into guilt trips. I had this post nicely laid out in my mind. I knew exactly what I wanted to say and how to make it look like I have my life figured out. The truth is--I'm a mess. I started this year with a personal decision that sent me into an emotional spiral. I did something I shouldn't have--I let myself care for someone when I knew I shouldn't, and I got hurt. Deeply. I've spent a long time beating myself up over something the Lord told me was not for me. I disobeyed the Lord, decided I couldn't trust Him, and held on when He was telling me to let go. The thing is--I thought I had obeyed the Lord. I thought I had trust...