Letting go of Doubt

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Almost a year ago I woke up with Proverbs 3:5 on my mind. I hadn't been reading in Proverbs or thought of the verse in awhile, but it fit so perfectly with where I was then. A year ago, the Lord started showing me one specific area that was not surrendered to Him--my 'status' as a single woman. It's been a good, if painful, process of surrender, some of which I've written about on here.

A year ago, I gave up something I really wanted. I let go telling myself the lie that if I did, God would bring something better. And He did, I just didn't see it because of my dissatisfaction. Doubt crept in. The questions. Did God really tell me this? Did he really want this for me? Maybe He made a mistake. Maybe I misunderstood Him.

I wish I had taken the easier route of trusting Him completely and letting it go like I should have. Doubt is a heavy burden to carry. It steals peace and tarnishes God's promise of joy in our lives. For those that know me well, you've been patient as I struggled with the sin of doubt. You've given counsel, prayed for me, and encouraged me. Through this year, I've learned just how important it is to have strong friendships with people who are living out their faith along with you. Who are transparent and willing to listen. Who give advice that is rooted in scripture.

God's timing is perfect. God's Word is inerrant. This I firmly believe. I'm certain that the Lord's plan for me is far better than anything I could attain on my own, and being aligned with His wills brings peace and joy that earthly things cannot provide.

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