A New Direction...and Thoughts

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*Disclaimer: Please realize as you read this that my sense of humor colors much of it. I leave it to you to figure out what I mean.*

 I think I am running out of inspiration. My blog lacks pizazz. Isn't that such a cool word? Pizazz--according to Google it is "An attractive combination of vitality and glamour." I have no real direction...this blog merely records the ramblings of a woman who doesn't know much and doesn't live a very glamorous life.

But really, does that matter? I guess it depends on you--my readers.

 I'm getting back to the things I love--reading. Writing. Or at least, trying to. Making coffee--I am, after all, barista trained. I can pull a mean shot. Just sayin'.

 But back to the writing. I realized recently that I have been very remiss in this area of my life. I did go to school and earn a degree in Technical Writing after all. Don't know what exactly technical writing is? Yeah...neither do I...

 But reading books reminds me of how much I like writing, and why I like to write. I like creating worlds and characters, imagining scenes and using words as tools. I don't think I will ever be a published author--that is not my intention. I like to write for the sake of writing. Maybe some day I will get back into writing on a more full-time basis, instead of as an afterthought.

 But let's be honest--I'm going to 'bare my soul' and 'tell all' (Sorry professor F--I know you don't like cliche's) I have doubts about my writing--is it any good? Could I really sell anything I write? Was writing as a profession a good idea? Could I actually make it in the world of writing? I don't know, and I guess I won't know until I actually get a job writing. So I will stop being insecure and just write. I will not worry about whether it is good or not. I will let you be the judge of that and keep my thoughts to myself. Most of the time.

 Sorry for the rambling. I tend to either be too closed-mouth or too open. I guess I forget that this isn't a journal--this is something that you will read. But at the same time, nothing too personal has been said. Enough insecurity. I'm posting and I will not worry about it.

Comments

Unknown said…
Ya know, rambling is ok, telling ones thoughts is what can become a book!

I dont mind the rambling:)
~your roomie! :) AG
February 12, 2013 at 7:03 AM
Rachel said…
Ha, just saw your comment...oh dear
March 12, 2013 at 7:14 PM
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