Incandescence

 I've been ruminating on the idea of waiting all month. It's a subject that is near and dear to my heart as a Christian, and also as a single woman in her thirties. It's a hard subject to write about, because waiting is so different for every one of us. According to a quick online search, the definition of waiting is: "the action of staying where one is or delaying action until a particular time or until something else happens." But what I am learning is that waiting is less about what you get at the end of it and more about what you learn through it. Psalms 130:5-6 says: “I wait for the Lord, my soul waits and in his word I hope; my soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen for the morning, more than watchmen for the morning.” (ESV) Its easy to turn waiting into an excuse to be angry, hurt, or disappointed with God. Unanswered prayers can be so hard. It can lead to doubt--'maybe God doesn't really love me,'--or make you wonder if there is some sin th...

 Happy April! As I mentioned in my previous post, I've been in an unusually motived-to-write kind of mood. Until January, trying to write anything creative felt a bit like trying to dig a well with a teaspoon--incredibly slow, painful, and pointless--so I didn't write, or at least not much. But in January I had my 'aha!' moment. I think a lot of it is thanks to God, books, and maybe even a shift in my own thinking, I finally wanted to write again. Instead of a teaspoon I had the proper tools to dig my well. So to speak. Anyway. I have (unofficially) completed my second book--ever! The first book I wrote a few years ago is collecting dust in a box somewhere and is better off never seeing the light of day, but I have hopes that I can actually salvage this book. Of course, its far from done right now. The first draft is just a starting point, and its going to take a lot of work to get it anywhere near where I would like it to be. I'm also excited--down the road after I...

  I'm missing the warmth and green of summer about now. I'm so thankful though that we are finally gaining daylight, and I'm already starting to plan my hikes for the summer. I spent the month of January with (almost) no social media, and realized just how little I actually miss it when its gone. It was a reminder to me of how precious time is, and how easy it is to spend it on things that are insignificant in the light of eternity. I've been doing a lot of 'soul searching' since the start of the new year, which isn't unusual. As a new year begins I often start to look at my life, like so many others, and wonder what I can change. So far this year I've been spending more time re-focusing on what is important in my life. I've been devouring new books, and, perhaps most rewarding of all, in writing. If I'm being honest, its been a long time (maybe even a few years) since I've really felt excited about creative writing. I have been working on a ...